It was a very strange interview, never had one like it.
It started easy enough when John Burgess and I watched a company introduction video made not too long ago. After that, Roger Gray, General Manager of Regulatory Affairs and Quality Assurance joined us. He asked how I spent my Christmas and the small talk just took over most part of the interview. My graphic design course assignments soon led to learning French and HanYu PinYin.
“We’ve run out of things to ask you.”
During the first interview, we had a good session understanding my background, experience, and my visa status. No longer questioning wasn’t a real surprise but did they prepare less than I did? I watched 2 movies on TV last night and had less than 5 hours of sleep so I was quite undisciplined.
It was quite late before serious discussions started. John went through the duties and responsibilities once again and asked if this is what I had expected of the role. My answer could be simplified to just “Yes, I comfortable with it.” I now regret of not explaining how I would fit this role with the character and qualities that I thought I had. I now realized that a few more of my other statements were very selfish, “It’s all about me.” Totally forgot about being in their shoes, and evaluating how I should cater for their needs. Sigh…
Bombshell dropped: I wasn’t the only one they were considering, there were 2 others. I had gone into this interview with over-confidence that I was going to be offered the role on the spot. I was already telling everyone to expect the good news, although at the back of mind I knew something like this was a real possibility. Again, I regret not driving points from my first interview and reminding them of it again. Sigh…
All this while, I thought my salary expectation was quite reasonable. Once again, I thought wrong. I was something I could justify but I’m not sure what John, Roger, Roger’s boss and 2 other directors think.
I could really see it slipping out of my ‘butter’ fingers now.
On my 30-minute walk back to the train station and the rest of the journey home, I realized I didn’t leave a solid 2nd impression as I did during the first interview. I sensed that this was another reminder that I need to be dependent upon God’s grace all the time, not just when I need Him. Similar to the feeling I had back in November, when I did even worse for my interview at Filtronic. But my confidence in the Lord then is still the same as it is now; that the Lord has my best interest in mind, even if I don’t land this role at the end of next week. I am already grateful for what He has provided for me so far. Never thought I would get this far without Him.
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"Okay, so here’s the plan. Listen carefully.
"No job there. No friends there. Spending first week in a hostel in London.
"After that, ‘question mark(?), question mark(?), question mark(?).’
"Got it?"
Most actually replied: "???"
Most were told that I’m off to ‘conquer the world’. A selected few were told it was a step of faith.
Even before this interview, I realised not how far I have come.
Not the UK visa application approval in July.
Not the 3600 miles I flew in October.
Not the uncertainties of adapting to a new culture, looking for accommodation and securing employment simultaneously after my first week here.
Not the temporary work with food and boarding at a chinese take-away restaurant with a distant relative.
Not the 2 telephone calls from recruitment agencies in one week in November, when I had only one contact in the previous 4 months of my job search.
Not the 3 interviews in 4 weeks since the end of last month.
Not the invitation to a 2nd interview above next year.
I realised not how far I have come, but how far God has carried me. When there should be 2 sets of footprints, the one set left behind in our trail of uncertainty and disappointment was not mine, but His. This has been a great journey of perseverance and dependence upon His grace, sustained by the prayers of family, friends, and cellgroups.
Rejoice in the Lord always. Awesome is the Lord most high.